BeNuMbEd FoReVeR

The gospel of my strength only I had imagined,
clinging on to what you had already snatched from me..
Making myself believe,time and again,
of the sanctity of the faith I had in you..
I breathed,waiting for my dulcet futurity,
making myself forget the curse I was given..
Smiled to you,running far away from myself,
standing numb & Encore! it happened again..
But as uncanny as it can be called,
the pain I'd thought would kill me,I didn't sense at all..
And it was then I asked myself,
am I happy now? or I'm benumbed forever :)