MeMeNtO

Conjoining the hurt..

The truth felt shy..

Mistakes magnifying from the mirror,

The shadow couldn't fly..

What made the butterflies flutter their wings..

Rusted the iron dragonflies..

Like anticipations bend their channels..

Uncertainty floating by..

Let go they said each time resistance took over..

So much left behind..

Reckoning of the caves hid within..

The craving sighed a cry..

Promises recited in ceilings..

Like flashes of lighting dying overnight..

tHe PoLe StAr

The magic was meant for me it felt,

A yearning felt heard without a word said,

Piercing through the armor of titanium,

A different world seemed to be awaiting instead.

Hopped from on edge to the other,

The glitter filled up the nihility,

The feeling was so mine,

A feeling of so much tranquility.

Reckoned the impairment existed for a reason,

Beautiful mind realized a wave of divinity,

A spring of belief hovering in the vicinity,

Caught hold of the weakest nerve and emitted serenity.

Wished could seize the moment,

And the world to end,

The glow ignited the dark corners,

Wished that I never had to wish again..

YoUrS tRuLy

Couldn't find the reasons,

Couldn't find the way,

They said there was a lit path,

They said this was just a habit..

Tried my best to turn my way like them,

In vain, it felt I wasn't meant to be alike them,

Still trying to defy my fore ordination,

Crawled to myself again..

It was just me I guessed,

Not willing to accept what was in store for me,

The tears stopped falling,

Smothered myself to feel like them..

But in the end, they showed me the mirror,

I tried to look away,

Couldn't walk away anymore..

This was me. This is me. I will always be this.

ThAt PeDaGoGiCaL rEaLiSaTiOn

It's like everywhere I go,

everyone I see,

the same chaos as inside me,

inside them I see..

Seen the closeness,

seen the time,

seen the distance,

seen the mile.

Moved from the glories of desolation,

to the frozen wine,

the colors were the same,

but they were not mine..

They merged in me,

or they just seemed,

I got closer,

to see them as they beamed.

What I saw was a mirror,

blinding my two eyes,

Didn't want to go further,

just prayed some cease..

Wanna go away,

wanna besiege the proximity,

wanna embrace my mortality,

wanna worship Thy entirety.

BeNuMbEd FoReVeR

The gospel of my strength only I had imagined,
clinging on to what you had already snatched from me..
Making myself believe,time and again,
of the sanctity of the faith I had in you..
I breathed,waiting for my dulcet futurity,
making myself forget the curse I was given..
Smiled to you,running far away from myself,
standing numb & Encore! it happened again..
But as uncanny as it can be called,
the pain I'd thought would kill me,I didn't sense at all..
And it was then I asked myself,
am I happy now? or I'm benumbed forever :)

16Th FeBrUaRy 2009

Melancholy in the bells of gay,
came to me as a birthday present,
I was gifted the deep...
I was gifted the peasant...
Unaware of the crudity that lay in my arms,
went on to have a pleasant dawn.
Sometimes it came, not true that it didn't
The clinching chrome of my happiness,
lay waiting for the taint of desires,
to perish on the pyre.
Melancholy in the bells of gay,
Came to me as a birthday present!
:)

UnTiTlEd
its like im digging deeper and deeper,
to get my treasure,
the more i dig,the tougher it becomes for me..
to come out
and what i find deep there..
in the darkness,is not a treasure..
but a beautiful coffin made for me.
living is just the same,
only that the moments spent in the travel..
are rue less..! so lovely!
i die with queer gay..
that the illusion was worth living..
and the diamond i thought i fell for,
LiBeRaTeD me.....