BeNuMbEd FoReVeR

The gospel of my strength only I had imagined,
clinging on to what you had already snatched from me..
Making myself believe,time and again,
of the sanctity of the faith I had in you..
I breathed,waiting for my dulcet futurity,
making myself forget the curse I was given..
Smiled to you,running far away from myself,
standing numb & Encore! it happened again..
But as uncanny as it can be called,
the pain I'd thought would kill me,I didn't sense at all..
And it was then I asked myself,
am I happy now? or I'm benumbed forever :)

16Th FeBrUaRy 2009

Melancholy in the bells of gay,
came to me as a birthday present,
I was gifted the deep...
I was gifted the peasant...
Unaware of the crudity that lay in my arms,
went on to have a pleasant dawn.
Sometimes it came, not true that it didn't
The clinching chrome of my happiness,
lay waiting for the taint of desires,
to perish on the pyre.
Melancholy in the bells of gay,
Came to me as a birthday present!
:)